Wednesday Morning

Tuesday night I drank plenty but still a woke a number of times from anxiety about the morning mammogram.
I read 10 or so pages from a Jean Harlow biography then got back to bed over & over.
At 7 I got up and had one glass of weak tea and got ready.
I read that you cant wear jewlry deoderant or perfume. I wore a loose blouse and no brazier so I wont delay the process. 
I got more and more nervous anticipating and speculating so I drank a can of Hibernater beerandtookmy migraine pill because I read this test is like slaming your breast in a refrigerater door.Which is not true btw.
One more Hibernater and my nerves where composed.
Ex hubby came and we went together.I barley said a word to ex hubby.
We got to the fan. I thouht there will be a big line of women waiting for free mammograms but there was not.
Climbing the bus stairs the bus had seats and there where 2 staffers who where extremly smiley & friendly.
I was surprised. I thought the staff will be dour and grim & serious.
I sat to fill forms for the pleasant male secretary. 
There was also a form for requests e.g requests for a free wig.
As soon as I was done a young pretty smiling lady says it was all ready. I pulled off my coat and followed her.
She told me to undress waist up and in the dressing room was a paper vest to wear.
Since she asked me to remove one side I asked her if I could just wear the vest as a cape and I put it that way till it fell and I gathered it and forgot about it.
It was no longer then 10 minutes for 2 pix of each breast and I was done. This is a new machine and saves time & pain. I felt no dis comfort at all.
She showed me one of the pix and explained my mamaries where very dense and that she did not see a problem.
She the technition said I should call the hospital and schedule an ultrasound but the guy out side said no just wait for a phone call within 48 hours.
I called any way once I got home and they said No wait for a call.
The remainder of that night I let myself forget and spent the evening happily and a little drunk.
Im very supersticious. I feel like even thinking or doing some thing wrong will affect my test in  negative way.
I know it doesnt make sense to be like this but that is what fear can do.
Im still waiting for a call. Im sure I need the ultra sound. Throuh this program even the ultra sound is free.
Im waiting still nervous.
I slept so much the past 2 days. Im not one for naps but some how could barely stay a wake  and my naps have been over an hour long. I guess stress and worry are knocking me out.
Hoping for all good things for all of us.